Pushing through...

This week hasn't been what I'd hoped. My time for my goal hasn't improved that much, but I'm still pushing myself each time. I can't seem to get past the 3.5 minutes. I'm frustrated and in pain and angry about it all. My feet feel heavy sometimes, like there's no Light in them. No oomph.

I know this will pass. I know I will do fine. I just wish I were just as sure about other areas in my life.

Quiet...

I can't help but wonder if anyone really reads this. I'm sure some of my friends do, I wonder about the rest of the world.

If you happen to be wondering why I've not posted in a while, I'll tell you. I have a hard time being deceitful. A seriously hard time. Even telling a half-truth while keeping silent about the rest just eats away at me. Strange, huh? So, what does that have to do with this blog? I haven't been telling the whole truth about my miles. Before you jump to the wrong conclusion, I'm not adding miles to my progress. And I'm very honest about where I am at the 30 minute mark. But I haven't been telling the whole story. And, while most (if not all) of you may shake your head and say that it doesn't matter, it matters to me.

I can't tell you what my actual miles are right now. After the end of the month I will be able to tell it all. Why? Because I have a goal that I'm trying to reach. And I've not told some very important people about it yet.

So, in the meantime, I won't be posting my miles. I won't be posting pictures of the treadmill or the bike. I will share about belly dancing and chains and strength training, but that's it. Because I can share all of that without telling half-truths.

Yes, my honesty matters that much to me.

Other movements

Between the sunburn and the pulled muscle, today was not what I'd hoped for. The sunburn is preventing me from wearing a sport-bra and the pulled muscle is hindering my walking, much less anything else. Still, I did a bit of yoga this morning and a light session of chains. I was starting to feel guilty about this until I remembered that I did do a little yard work yesterday. Not a lot of it, but there was some shoveling and pushing a wheelbarrow full of dirt a couple times.

So, a cool shower, some more salve on my back, a little arnica on my leg, another few glasses of water and another night's rest will set everything back on track.

888.2 Miles

(1.4 treadmill)

Tonight we camp, sleeping on the ground. Our blindfolds are still in place.

A slower treadmill day. I think part of that was the fact that it was so much earlier in the day, part of it was the restless night I had. Still, I'm please with my 30 minute mark. My legs are feeling stronger and I've noticed more endurance. That makes me really happy.


I still have 32 miles to go before I reach Lothlorien. At the rate I'm going it won't happen until some time in July. I still haven't decided what I will get for myself, so I guess it's good that the treadmill is taking longer.

886.9 Miles

(1.1 treadmill)
(1.8 treadmill)

I didn't post yesterday so this is a combined entry.

Yesterday was only 1.1 miles. I'd had an appointment in the morning and felt kind of out of it physically when I was done. It's not a big deal and I feel a lot better today.

Today was 1.8 miles at 30 minutes. A lot better. I'm hoping to increase that even more by the end of the week. Wish me luck.

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